3 - My Inspiration
College is starting to get hard. Although it is just the beginning/the start of college, I am starting to feel laziness creeping up on me. It is as if there is someone over my shoulder saying, "Hey kid, listen to me. That assignment you have to pass for Sir Deeno, you can postpone it until Thursday. Remember that blog that Sir Dustin asked you do make? You can postpone it." I really hate it when that happens—laziness starts to get the best of me.
But no, not this time. Laziness won't even get to me, and even if it does, I have the ultimate weapon against it—an inspiration. Yes, I actually found an inspiration, something to spur me into doing better things, something that pushes me to the library in order to read books in advance, something that lifts some of the weight off my beaten-to-death shoulders.
My inspiration is not an old girlfriend (I never had one), nor is it an old love interest, no. My inspiration is a group of people who are rooting for me. For one, the Capacia family—the family that has been really supportive of me. Ate Faye Capacia (and the other members of the Capacia family have) recommended me to APC in the first place, to be honest. Because of them, I am here. The Capacia family is not the only family I am working hard for, but for my (broken) family as well.
Last but not the least: the unsuccessful version of me.
You might ask, "Why would your inspiration be yourself? What does 'unsuccessful' mean?" To be honest, I chose a version of my future self—who is in poverty, unemployed, homeless, and overweight—because it reminds me to NOT END UP LIKE THAT. The thought of me in 20 or 30 years sitting on a chair with piles of trash and cans of Coke around me actually scares me. Oddly enough, it spurs me into doing better things and focus on my studies.
By biggest enemy in college is not going to be my professors, nor the activities, not even bullies, but myself. Because, if I do not start to act and do good, the people counting on me will lose hope and—eventually—I would end up as a homeless and overweight man who will be depressed and regret everything until the end of his life.
(I would like to show you all a picture of a guy who is messy and overweight right now, just so you can all get the general idea of who I do not want to be. Then I figured that it would ruin the elegance of this blog with such a grotesque photo.)
Why am I inspired by the thought of not becoming a person who is unemployed and fat anyway? Oh, wait, it is because of FEAR. The fear of ending up as a man who is like that scares me and it makes me want to not end up like that. Here is a question: Why are most public service announcements have some sort of fear in it? Because of fear pushes you away from that dangerous thing. We human beings have developed fear for things in order to keep us safe from them. Most of us are scared of lions or sharks because they can easily kill you. So, in turn, you stay away from that creature as a safety measure, to insure your survival.
Please allot 40 minutes of your time to watch this compilation of videos about anti-drug pubic service announcements in its entirety, then you will understand what I mean about fear.
Whew, watching some of those videos in the middle of the night made me get goosebumps. Shivers immediately start to race down my spine. You see the best way to make a person do something is to scare them, put fear in them. In that case, fear is used to scare the person watching the video into not taking drugs.
Call me a square, or a goodie two shoes, or whatever, but I really do not want to end up as a drug addict, nor as a homeless and unemployed person, and definitely not both.
As you see, I do not want to make a mess of my life. I want to continually push myself to do better things because I want to improve the current state of my life and turn it into something better. If I am going to die, I am going to die for a good reason—and that does not include drugs or type 3 diabetes.
I am here to make my mark on the world and, because I will only live once, I am going to use it to do great things.
